Part One--The Power To Tell Him "No"

*
Speaking of the devil
Look who just walked in
*

"Don't look now," Sally eyed Hilde with great caution, "but guess what the wind pushed in."

Lucrezia and Relena both turned to face the entrance to find a devilishly handsome young man standing there, scanning the crowd for the person he meant to find.

"Oh, Great," Relena moaned as she stared at him.

He hadn't noticed them in the corner yet but it would not be too long before he would.

They'd all been sitting in the bar, now, for almost two hours. It had gone rather well, considering her efforts to avoid him but somehow... some way, her escape managed to elude her and now pushed her forward, exposing her to the predator that sought her out.

"He _Always_ knows where to find me," Hilde pouted as she slid just a tiny bit lower into her seat.

*
He knows just where to find me
Here we go again
*

Daring a glance backward, Hilde let out a heavy breath and waited for his move. He had already spotted them but his approach was obviously pending his thoughts. She was with three women who would not let him get close enough to even sense her but he would get to her some how.

"He's staring, isn't he," she asked with a sad expression.

Relena nodded as Lucrezia answered.

"Yup."

"God...." Hilde whispered and turned to stare.

Heero stared back at her and turned away to face Duo who was sitting next to him. Hilde turned away, knowing that Duo was gearing himself up to ask her to dance.

=If I dance...= she took a heavy breath and let it out slowly.

*
I can tell he's gonna ask me to dance
But that's not as far as he wants to go
I need ten thousand angels to help me tell him no
*

//"I love you, Hilde. This is right!"

"Duo... I don't think..." =God you smell so good....= "no, Duo... please..."

In between kisses and touches, Hilde was trying desperately to get out of his grip but his tenderness was too much for her and she needed every bit of him that she could get.

"Do you really want me to stop," he whispered in her ear.

"Yes, Duo... please... we can't do this... not now..."//

She hadn't wanted to stop then but she knew that this was a step she could not take responsibly and so they ended their small 'session' right there. Duo pulled away from her, disappointed but pretended not to show it. Instead, he waited a week and when she still would not give herself up to him, he took it from the girl who worked in mission control. Sure, she was all too eager to give up what Hilde wouldn't. She'd been known as the girl who controlled the missions.

When Duo came clean, it had hurt her to no end and she had left him but a piece of her had still wanted him. She loved him. Or did she? Was it a mere convenience? Maybe she didn't love him as much as she thought she did, it was just a plausible effect for him to play on her emotions.

Staring back at him more than once, she felt her insides tighten as she watched him smile lightly at something the bar tender had said. He looked so good and innocent standing there next to Heero. His white shirt and tight blue jeans fit snugly around his very well defined body and his braid was actually held back in ruberbands and not the actual braid itself. Rarely did he take the braid out but he had today.

"Good Knight," she whispered and turned away when he moved to stand.

"Don't do it," Sally warned as she stared at the girl, trying to ignore Duo's obvious stupidity at approaching her.

*
Lead me not into temptation
Heaven help me to be strong
I can fight all that I'm feeling
But I can't do it alone
Help me break this spell that I'm under
Guide my feet and hold me tight
I need ten thousand angels watching over me tonight
*

"I can do this," Hilde muttered softly. She looked up at Relena and Sally and then turned to Lucrezia. "I can tell him no," she stated firmly. "I _can_!"

"You _will_ because I am not going to his place to pick you up," Relena threatened heavily in hopes that it would give her strength.

That's what she needed. It was hard enough resisting someone of his nature but it was harder for her, seeing as how she had only dated him since the end of the Eve wars. He went too quickly to find someone willing and now he would have to see that he couldn't have his cake and eat it too.

=Here I go...= she thought and held her breath as it caught in her throat.

"Hilde," Duo spoke lightly, waiting for her to turn around.

He did not look any of the other three women in the eyes, knowing that they were all boring holes into his flesh. He stared at her dark hair and could hear her heart pounding with his.

*
It's time to face my weakness
Look him in the eye
*

=God help me= she whispered to herself and dared to turn around but found that she couldn't. She _had_ to, though. She had to put him in his place here and now.

=Come on, Hilde,= she whispered, unknowing that three other minds were whispering the same thing.

*
Lord knows it won't be easy
But I've just gotta try
*

"Hilde, Please," Duo pleaded a bit louder, in case she hadn't heard him call her the first time.

Hilde bit her lip, looking down into her lap and then turned a burdened gaze to meet his. She took a deep breath and accepted his outstretched hand, standing up to be at a little bit more of eye level with him.

=He's going to ask... say no!=

Duo pulled her closer, still ignoring the women in view and moved to put his arm around her waist.

"Dance with me," he whispered softly.

Hilde stared into his eyes, aware of his hand at the small of her back; aware that her friends were rooting for her but at the moment were becoming irate with the scene unfolding before them. She could not tear her eyes away from his but could hear the screaming in the back of her mind to stop right then and there and put him in his place. That had been the whole plan. She'd managed to avoid him for two weeks now and she couldn't just give in now. He needed to go find Sylvia or whatever her name was. She wasn't a toy that he could pick up and dust off after tossing her onto the floor.

*
I can let myself get lost in his arms
That's how I got my heart broke before
I need ten thousand angels to walk me out the door
*

"Dance with me," he said, pulling her close to him.

He smelled of the same cologne he'd had on that same night that she wouldn't accept him into her body. The night that he had ultimately decided that if she wouldn't have sex with him he'd find someone who would.

=God... help me, he smells so good= she thought and tried to show no emotion but it was already there and he could see it.

Heero watched Relena's reaction as she stared at the couple in front of her and then darted a chastising look into his direction. He studied her a moment longer, showing her that her sentiment did not affect him and he turned away to take another drink of his beer.

Hilde sighed as she felt the warmth of his hand on her back. How she wanted to be in his arms forever but how could she?

//"I'm Telling you, De! ONCE a Cheater, ALWAYS a cheater," Catherine had said. "That's the way men Work."//

That had come when Catherine had come to visit Trowa and had stumbled into a conversation between a sobbing Hilde and a raging Relena.

=Always a cheater= she told herself, repeating her friend's words. =But he smells so good= she whined inwardly.

Allowing her eyes to drift over his body, she averted away from him for the tiniest moment to contemplate her next move.

//"You _will_ tell him no..."//

=God, Duo... why did you have to do this to me...=

*
Lead me not into temptation
Heaven help me to be strong
I can fight all that I'm feeling
But I can't do it alone
Help me break this spell that I'm under
Guide my feet and hold me tight
I need ten thousand angels watching over me tonight
*

"The music is ending, Hilde. Please come with me," Duo pleaded again. His hope was to get her to go with him so that he could talk to her, apologize and hopefully make it up to her. That was all he wanted. To make it up to her. "Please."

Hilde stared at him and let her head fall as she shook it lightly. Just as she had gathered her strength and her courage, she took a deep breath.

"No, Duo," she stated flatly.

All the background music had stopped. Only the sound of glasses clinking together and a dishwasher running near the bar could be heard. Duo stared at her with wide eyes. That wasn't the answer he had expected from her. It seemed like, for a moment, that he would be able to break the chain but he thought wrong. Instead, it became doubled around the heart that he had broken.

Surprised by her own words, Hilde blinked a few times, unsure if she had actually said it out loud. Judging the size of his eyes and the expression of pure pain he now carried, she knew she had and found courage to say it again.

"No. I will not dance with you, I will not go home with you and I will not suffer defeat to you or to whomever you will find to sleep with you tonight," she said, holding back the shock of the words she found and chose to use. "I will not acknowledge your apology but it has been noted that it was made and upon further detail, I will not submit to your call any longer," she spoke a bit softer.

Duo felt as if he'd just been told that he was standing in mid air with nothing beneath him. At any second, like a cartoon character, he would realize this as truth and would fall into an endless pit of despair at her words. She said no. No meant no in all situations. At least that was what Heero had told her. But even Heero was willing to help him get her back.

//"No. I said I would take you there. If she still says no or still ignores you, that's it."//

Duo sighed and turned now to stare at the three women who were now standing, gathering their coats and purses and whatever girls carried with them when they went out.

Sally grunted past him, not even bothering to look him in the eye. Relena handed Hilde her jacket as she glared at the usually braided American. She then turned her scowl to Heero and offed after Sally. Lucrezia stood up as Hilde put her jacket on and then walked up to stand next to the girl.

Hilde stared at Duo one last time, taking in the site of his beauty. He was beautiful. He was also a jerk. Perhaps it was true, then. Every rose had it's thorn. Sadly, though, Duo was no rose. He never had been. She sighed and turned away from him. She didn't say good-bye to him, she didn't say she was sorry, she just walked away.

Lucrezia brushed past him also, not saying a word in passing either. Instead, she too left him standing alone.

Outside, Hilde burst into tears as Relena hurried to get her into the car. Sally gave her a tight hug, telling her she was proud of her.

"Maybe you two will eventually work it out but this is what you needed right now," Lucrezia said as she patted the girl's back. "You need to know that you are strong. You _can_ do this. You _will_ make it."

Hilde nodded, wiping at the tears and then getting into the car. She didn't feel like she would but she knew they were right. This is what Duo would need to prove that as much of a player as he wanted to be, he would still not be able to play with her. With a sniffle and a wiping of her tears, she watched as they drove past the entrance of the bar. Duo and Heero had just walked out, Duo with his head hung low.

=God help me= she whispered again.

*
I need ten thousand angels watching over me tonight
Ten thousand angels, watching over me tonight
Ten thousand angels, watching over me tonight
Watching over me tonight...
*

Part Two--Memories

Hilde sighed as she stared out the window. He had been gone now for about six and a half weeks. Both of them were. Neither of them scheduled to come back any time soon. It had been a long time since Duo and both, unknowingly or perhaps privately knowing, Trowa and Wufei had helped her through that time in her life.

Outside the air was cold and rigid and she watched as her breath warmed the glass before her, fogging it up. Moving to clear off the view, she sighed again and turned around. On her desk stared back at her a picture of the three of them together. How they had pursuaded Wufei to get into the picture, neither were sure but she and Trowa had managed and that was all that mattered.

Feeling a tinge of guilt, she couldn't help but think that maybe it was her fault that they'd been sent away. Like she had done some horrible thing and they paid the penalty for it by being sent off to their present locations.

=But you were so good to me= she whispered softly as she stared down at the picture, looking into dark onyx eyes that stared back, hiding their own truth behind them.

*
When I think about the first time
I thought I found someone who cared for me
But things were not as they appeared to be
*

//"How are you?"

Hilde wiped her eyes, sniffling as she blew her nose again for the millionth time. She shook her head, not wanting to talk about it and not wanting to deal with Wufei's arrogance about weak women.

"I heard what happened," Wufei spoke softly. He didn't know why he was staring at her or why he was even aproaching her. He didn't know why he cared but for some reason he did and he went with the feeling. If for anything, at least to see where it took him and if he could handle it. "That's probably the best thing you could have ever done."

Hilde blinked back her tears a moment before they fell again. Had she heard him right? Was he actually _not_ making a rude or dirrogatory comment toward her?

"What," she asked, contorting her face into sheer confusion.

"Maxwell. He doesn't deserve someone like you. In fact... you deserve so much better. It's good that you walked away from him last night."

Hilde sighed and wiped her tears. It was less than becoming for her to be crying in the office, knowing that Duo could walk in at any moment in time but she didn't care. He didn't have watch that day, she did. Wufei did and Heero did. But Heero would not talk to her.

"Thanks," she whispered.

"Anytime," Wufei spoke and stood up.

As he walked toward the door, Hilde called to him with a soft smile crossing her lips.

"What did you do with the _real_ Wufei," she asked jokingly.

Wufei did not smile or laugh but he felt her sentiment and nodded as he walked out.//

"God... how did this happen," she whispered to herself and sat down behind the large desk.

*
Rainy day man
On your shoulder I cried
When my first brush with love
Left me shaking inside
Rainy day man
*

//Hilde found herself crying again. She had left the office and had run to her car, fumbling in the rain, dropping her keys to the hard cement ground. Duo had just begged her to come back to him, to talk it out and she couldn't handle his pleading. She wanted to; she did. She loved him but it wasn't to be. Not with him. Not like that. Catherine's words forever rang through her mind.

=Always a cheater= she cried as she reached down for her keys.

A tan colored hand reached out, grabbing them instead and she suddenly realized that she was being blocked from the rain. Looking up to meet truly dark orbs, she sighed as he helped her to stand properly. His expression was almost as dark as the clouds that were pelting them with their anger. Hers was as sad.

"Come on," Wufei spoke quietly and held out his hand to her.

"But my..."

"It will be fine," he said and pulled her along to his bronco, allowing her to climb in through the passenger side.

She stared at him, wondering why he was behaving this way but it didn't matter. Tears still streaked her face and even though she fought to keep them in, it didn't help. Seconds passed before she burst into sobs and tears right there in his truck. There was a long silence from his side as he started the truck and the heater before he handed her some tissues.

"Thanks," she whispered.

Not long after that, Hilde was being led into Wufei's apartment. She didn't care why he was being so kind to her; at least he wasn't dogging her about the situation. Maybe it was because he'd grown up some after being in a relationship with Sally but she didn't know.

"I will make you some tea," Wufei said as he gently pushed her in the direction of the living room and went into the kitchen.

Taking the hint, Hilde walked over to the couch, still sobbing and sniffling as she sat down on the plush furniture. It was not anything she would imagine Wufei having in his apartment but there it was; furnished and decorated in a wildly sophisticated fashion. It suited him somehow, though.

Only a short period of time had gone by when he came back into the room and watched her, offering her the tea.

"Why are you being so nice to me," Hilde whispered. "Not that I don't appreciate it..."

Wufei shrugged and watched her take a drink before the tears came again. Hilde cried, going into her pain of why she felt the way she did, it hadn't even occured to her that she was in his arms, crying on his shoulder. Literally. But she was; crying on his shoulder, telling him her secrets and pain, sharing things with a man who seemed quite _not_ the person that anyone would share _any_ of this with. And he listened.//

Hilde sighed, shaking her head. He made love to her that night. Perhaps out of her rebound, perhaps because he wanted to... it didn't matter. She had asked him to and he obliged her. How had that happened? How did _any_ of this happen? Hilde sat back in her chair and thought about the relationship that had been created and how it had grown.

*
Ever since I can remember
Just like a brother you've been strong and true
Always been the one to see me through
*

She had known him for a long time. Longer than it seemed that she'd known Wufei. Trowa and she had become friends sometime before the Barton Coup and he had been there for her when she and Duo had hit rough times. He was there for her when she broke it off with Duo and during the aftermath of that effect. Even when Wufei had set in and had seemingly become 'her man' he was still there.

//Trowa stared at her and she could feel it but Hilde did not want to meet his gaze upon her. He was probably harboring horrible thoughts about her and she wasn't sure that she could deal with it.

"Hilde... I don't think you are a horrible person. I think Duo's an a**hole," he said matter of factly.

Hilde turned to face him, wiping her tears.

"Would you have dumped him?" she asked, suddenly realizing the stupidity of the question. She shook her head as she watched him stare at her with a confused smile.

"I wouldn't have dated him to begin with," he said and reached out to touch her hand.

Hilde stared at his hand on hers and sighed. She wanted to cry again but she couldn't. She didn't need to.

"You'll get through this," he whispered softly.

Hilde nodded and stood up, leaving him alone with his thoughts as she went to tend with hers.//

Hilde rocked a bit in her chair, bringing up the memories that had came after that. Duo had come to her in her office, had angered her to the point of tears and had upset her to an unimagined degree. She ran out of the building into the rain and ended up in the arms of love.

//Heated breath covered her skin, prickling it into gooseflesh as he touched every inch of exposed skin. His lips sent every inch of her on fire, providing her with a sense of warmth and a chill all at the same time.

"Wu... fei..." she whispered as his lips met hers once again. She hadn't even remembered feeling this burning sensation that coursed through her body when she almost went down this road with Duo.

"What," he whispered softly.

Hilde moved beneath him, kissing him, pulling him to her; knowing that what she was doing was wrong. She was on the rebound and should not have been here in this situation. Or was it that he should not have seduced her in this situation because she was on the rebound.

"Why..." she started but could not finish. She watched him pull slightly away from her to stare into her eyes. "Why me..." she whispered.

Wufei rubbed her face with his thumb and leaned down to kiss her.

"It is I who should be asking," he said.

~*~

"I can't believe you did it... with _him_ of all people!"

Hilde felt herself blush and turned away, trying to hold an air of authority anyway.

"Jealous," she asked, hoping that her attempt to wash away her sudden guilt was working.

"A little," Trowa spoke and turned to look at her.

Hilde stared at him, unblinking, unmoving and then felt the heat redden her face more. She quickly turned away, unsure of what to say to him. Her ploy to rid the guilt now turned into sheer defeat. Had she known she stood a chance with Trowa, would she have gone to Wufei? But he had come to her and she hadn't said no. Did that make it her game, then?

"I just hope Duo doesn't find out," she whispered softly.

"Let him," Trowa answered. "It will serve him right."//

*
Rainy day man
You're much more than a freind
I would give anything
Just to see you again
Rainy day man
*

Hilde smiled at that thought. Oh, and Duo had had a coniption fit like no other _any_ of them had ever seen. It had become so great that Lady Une had assigned him to TAD on the north shore of what was once known as the Camen Islands. There was a military base down there now and he had gone there for three weeks. When he came back, he was too fried to remember why he had even been sent there but shortly after his return, he had requested transfer out there.

That didn't matter though. She sighed and let the memories continue to run through her mind. Trowa and Wufei had been there for her for so many things. Ever since the Eve Wars, they were there. Trowa was there to keep Duo in line and Wufei was there to do the same. They treated her like a sister at one point but somehow that fashion of thinking had changed. They no longer looked at each other as someone who needed protecting and someone who would do the protecting. From the talks the ladies in her life had given her, she knew that she was strong and that she was her own person. She had come to find the things that _she_ liked because they were things that _she_ liked. And the two men in her life had helped her to see this in their own ways, separately together.

*
Always been the one to see me through
*

//"Maxwell is a baka and he'll get his," Wufei had snorted. "Don't worry about it. You're strong, you've said so many times. Prove it."

Hilde looked up and glared at him. How _dare_ he speak to her like that. After he knew all that she had been through with him and Wufei had the audacity to say this to her? She could not believe he would say that.

"Just because it was _easy_ for _you_ to walk away from commitment, doesn't mean it is as _easy_ for everyone else," she growled at him to which he quickly reminded her that he had never been 'involved' in a 'commitment' with Sally.

For seconds, both glared at the other and were fit to be tied with the rage that had suddenly surrounded them. They went from that one day to her giving him her virginity four weeks later.

~*~

"Will it... hurt..." she breathed as Wufei prepared to penetrate her tightness.

She was scared. This was something she wouldn't do with Duo because she didn't feel ready. Was she ready now? Was it that she wanted to get back at Duo and was going to give herself up to Wufei? Would she regret it?

"What?"

Hilde stopped kissing him and pulled away, staring into his eyes. Should she have asked? Perhaps just faked it?

"God..." she whispered and tried to roll out from beneath him. He would not let her. Instead, he demanded an answer from her. "I'm a virgin," she spoke softly, embarrassed that she'd even brougth it up. Like he would know anyway.

Wufei leaned down and kissed her forehead, not daring just yet to enter her. He stared into her eyes and dried her tears.

"Maybe for a bit," he answered. "I honestly cannot say."

Hilde reached up to kiss him, grabbing his face between her hands and pulling him down to her.

"Why..." she started but could not finish. She watched him pull slightly away from her to stare into her eyes. "Why me..." she whispered.

Wufei rubbed her face with his thumb and leaned down to kiss her.

"It is I who should be asking," he said.

Reaching down with his hand, Hilde felt him place the warmth of his palm over her tightness. Seconds later, she gasped as he slid a finger gently into her, preparing her lightly for what she was about to feel full force. He rubbed her clit gently at the same time that he moved his finger within her, all the while kissing her lips, tasting her anticipation.

Hilde moaned and writhed beneath him, certain that what he was about to do would give her ten times more pleasure after the twenty times of pain she was certain to receive. It didn't matter, though. She wanted it and had asked him to.

"Make love to me," she pleaded again.

"Are you sure," he asked.

Hilde stared into his dark eyes and nodded. She closed her eyes as Wufei bent down above her and then lowered himself to her breasts where he had begun sucking on one gently. He wanted her to feel pleasure from him and so he first teased her and tempted her before he filled her with his hardened flesh.

Hilde cried out, a small yelp escaping her throat before she held her breath and squealed at what she felt. The tightening that had occurred and the pain that shot through her as he literally tore her apart had sent a powerful surge through her body, releasing endorphins that caused her to need more. It hurt, true enough, but what came after that was more than she had ever imagined or expected and she wanted it again and again until there was no more to gain from this experience of ecstacy and love. Was this what Duo would have done for her? She figured not, for he would not have been able to be as gentle as Wufei had been.

*
Rainy day man
On your shoulder I cried
When my first brush with love
Left me shaking inside
*

Trowa stared at her, watching her. Hilde did not want to look at him. If he hadn't thought horribly about her when she broke it off with Duo, she was certain he did now. She had broken up with Duo because he cheated on her. He cheated on her because he needed release and she would not give it to him. So instead, two and a half months later she gave it to Wufei. How aweful was that? She was a horrible horrible person. So she felt.

"Look at me, Hilde," Trowa spoke and grabbed her hand as she wouldn't. "Look at me."

Raising her eyes to meet his, she peered at him through a gaze of innocent appeal.

"You're old enough to make you're own decisions," he said. "I'm just here if you need me to be. That is my lot in this life."

"Is it," she asked him and sighed. How aweful she felt right about this time.

"I can't believe you did it... with _him_ of all people!"

Hilde felt herself blush and turned away, trying to hold an air of authority anyway.

"Jealous," she asked, hoping that her attempt to wash away her sudden guilt was working.

"A little," Trowa spoke and turned to look at her.//

Hilde felt tears in her eyes. She tried brushing the rest of the memories away as she stood up again and for the eight time that morning, she walked over to the window and stared out into the world. It had started snowing sometime between now and her last visit there and had already started collecting on the ground.

With a heavy sigh, she forced the air out of her lungs and wiped the tears that had begun to fall. She missed them. Both of them.

*
Rainy day man
You're much more than a friend
I would give anything
Just to see you again
*

"God.... why can't I be with you," she whispered. "What I wouldn't give to see you again..." she spoke softly and turned away.

*
Rainy day man
Rainy day, Rainy day
Rainy day man
*

Perhaps some day soon, she mused but for now the memories would have to do.

Part Three--A Desire to See Her Again: As Memories Unfold

(about three months later)

Trowa walked into the small space of a living quarter and threw his jacket on a hanger and into the closet. He'd been living on L1 for about four months now after he and Wufei had been sent there to two different sections of the colony. His position rested at "Anzu Pass"* and Wufei was sent to "Kaigan"* but they had manged to find a place exactly in the middle and lived there, together, much against the wards of their command. It didn't matter, they didn't care. What had started out as TAD* had grown into full scale assignment and they were given orders to remain at their present locations.

"Hungry," Wufei asked as he watched Trowa cross the short distance from the door to the bedroom.

"No," Trowa answered and locked himself in the room.

Hours had passed. Thankful for the weekend, Wufei was content to just be home and not having to worry about driving an hour and a half to work the next day. This was slowly depleting him of any life he had left.

Walking into the room, he crossed the hall to the bathroom and flicked on the light. He turned on the shower and waited a few minutes before getting in.

Trowa sighed as he watched Wufei undress and closed his eyes, opening his mind to the memories that ran rampant forever in his mind.

//"I can't do this..."

He didn't know why, he couldn't but he just couldn't. It seemed wrong. Pushing her away, he backed up from her but found that she had cornered him into a wall.

"Shhh..." Hilde whispered and reached up again to kiss him. She captured his lips tentatively and partially stripped him of the lower half of his uniform.

Trowa kissed her gently, wanting to touch her in more ways than one and closed his eyes, gasping as he tried to silence his voice when she took him into her mouth. How he wanted her more than that. Involuntarily, he shoved his hips foreward, forcing himself deeper into her mouth but she calmed him, placing her hands on either side.

Trowa leaned against the counter, letting his head fall back as he allowed her this pleasure; as he allowed it of himself. He could not believe that they were doing this. How could they be doing this? Wufei was his friend. He was her _boyfriend_. What gave them the right?

Hilde continued in sucking on him, tasting him, wanting to feel him inside of her but how far would they get being locked in the records room? This would have to do and so she allowed her tongue to lap up his prejuices that were already spewing into her mouth and sucked him as best she could, as long as she could until he was no longer in control and now shooting into her mouth.

Swallowing every ounce of his seed that she could, Hilde backed away from him and stood up, kissing him again. Trowa could taste the slight sour taste he projected into her and sighed inwardly as he wished his seed had taken someplace else within her body instead of her mouth.//

He sighed and heard the shower turn off. Rolling onto his side, he stared back into the memory as he listend to Wufei in the background getting dried off and dressed.

//He couldn't believe he allowed her to do that and as they stood there kissing, slowly wrapping his arms around her, Wufei walked in on them.

The look of pure anger that sped across his features caught them both off guard and now it could easily be seen why it was such a necessity when she broke it off with Duo. How aweful it was to be in that predicament and to know that it was his _friend_ he had done this to.

Wufei walked up to them, not missing that Trowa's pants were slightly undone and out of place. He stared at them both, glaring, not knowing what to do or say. Pulling Hilde out of the way from his rage, he stepped up to Trowa, ready to strike at him but he didn't. Instead, he turned to face her, quesitoning her silently before out loud.

"All you had to do was ask," he hissed at her and then left.

Trowa stared at his retreating form and then at Hilde who was now staring at the floor, tears present. How could she do that to him? Trowa picked Hilde's face up, lifitng it by her chin and stared into her eyes. He kissed her gently as it did not matter now that they'd been found out.

"You tell me if he does _anything_ to you," he whispered and left the room.

Hilde sighed with a ragged breath as she watched him go but said nothing. What could she say?//

"What are you thinking about," Wufei asked as he sat down on the edge of the bed.

Trowa stared out the window at the precut stars of a colonized night. Thoughts and words crossed his mind, giving him a variety of choices on how he should respond but he could not. Not the way he wanted to, anyway.

"Hilde," he said. "I want to see her again."

Trowa heard Wufei take a deep breath in and let it out slowly as he laid down next to him. He detected the 'clean' scent of Wufei's shampoo and sighed. It had been a long time since this had taken place. Something struck them and they hadn't even slept in the same room together. For almost as long as they'd been here on L One, this had been going on.

"Do you think she's the reason we're here," Wufei asked as he stared at the ceiling.

"No," Trowa answered and rolled over onto his back. Now he, too, stared at the ceiling, thinking about their orders and why they were sent to the same place but to different bases. Was it going to change the way they felt? Was it going to change the situation?

Wufei stared silently, wanting to say something, wanting to _do_ something but all he could do was breathe heavily and let it out. Only seconds had passed when he felt Trowa's hand on his stomach. Not realizing how much he had truly missed the other young man's touch, he felt himself grow immediately hard beneath his boxers. Trowa must have felt it too for he raised his hand slightly off the smooth flesh and then lowered it again, allowing his palm to rest just above the band of the shorts.

Trowa let his hand sit on Wufei's stomach, not knowing wheather he should continue or not in his descent to where he wanted to be. It was a tough enough call, admitting his thoughts to begin with but he was not one to hide them either.

"I was thinking about... the time you walked in..." he started but let the thought trail. Though it led to an intriguing relationship, it was still one of slight pain.

Wufei cringed inside, knowing where he was going with his memory but what could he do? It had happened. So long ago, yes, but happened none the less.

"Would you change it," he asked, knowing the answer and so said nothing when Trowa did not answer him. He'd asked a million and a half times and had received the same answer three million times more.

Trowa turned to him, regarding him carefully. Wufei had wet hair that matted itself around his forehead and face and had adhered somewhat to the pillow. His features were shot from being tired all week but other than that, he was still beautiful. He wanted him. Slowly lowering his hand, giving his lover every chance to refuse him, Trowa found his way to Wufei's throbbing member and squeezed gently. Wufei's hand came up, covering Trowa's but not removing it from where it had attatched itself.

Rubbing gently, Trowa moved his hand over the erection, pumping it softly before he moved to initiate conduct. Wufei did not reject when Trowa slowly removed his shorts from his body. He took several deep breaths, trying to calm himself but he did not fight against it.

"What does this remind you of," Trowa asked softly as he kissed Wufei's knee gently.

Wufei sighed, staring into dark green orbs that seemed darker in the half light of the street light outside their window. What did this remind him of? It reminded him of a _lot_ of things. Did he have to pick one in general?

//"What are you doing," Wufei growled. "I don't fly that way," he spoke roughly.

"Then why haven't you asked me to stop," Trowa whispered.

Why? Wufei thought about that a moment and still continued to glare at the man he _thought_ was his _friend_.

"Why did you mess around with Hilde," he asked.

"She came to me," Trowa responded just as harshly.

Somehow, Wufei had no other choice within himself but to believe it. And the funny thing about it was that he wasn't even upset. He was upset initially but as thoughts grew in his mind, he realized that it didn't bother him as much as he thought it did.

Trowa continued in his massaging of the back of Wufei's neck and had continued, also, in kissing it gently. He'd always wanted a taste of this oriental beauty of a man and was finally having it.

"I want her, Wufei," Trowa whispered into Wufei's ear. He observed that his breath in said young man's ear sent a chill through his body, giving him goose bumps. "But I want _you_ to give her to me."

Wufei thought he knew what Trowa was asking but having his lips so close to his ear threw his mind out of proportion. He closed his eyes and let his head fall to the side, knowing that somehow he was stronger than this and more of a man but how could he say no to desire. Did it _matter_ that it was coming from another guy?

"She's mine, Trowa," he whispered softly and felt his fingers curl into a fist as Trowa softly nipped at the exposed skin.

"Then allow me to be with her," Trowa asked and moved around the front. "Do you want to know what she did to me," he asked and looked up to meet Wufei's curious, somewhat disgruntled gaze. Slowly he began working off the belt of the uniform and then opened it just enough to expose Wufei's betraying flesh.

Slightly embarrassed, Wufei met Trowa's gaze, studying the thoughts that he could not visibly see or read completely. Trowa was not embarrassed by it. In fact, he seemed almost thrilled. Within seconds, Trowa had Wufei's length almost completely in his mouth and was sucking on him _painfully_ slowly. Trowa moved up and down softly and gently scraped his teeth over the sensitive flesh. Wufei had forgotten that he'd been angry with the young man now sucking him off. He'd forgotten that he was supposed to be ready for violence from what Trowa had done. He'd realized that the only violence that would occur is if Trowa stopped what he was doing.

Thrusting his hips upward into Trowa's mouth, Wufei held onto the arm rests of the chair and let his head push against the material behind him.

"Trowa..." he breathed heavily, "what do you want from me," he asked with a deep moaning of pleasure.

"You," Trowa replied. "And Hilde."//

When Wufei opened his eyes, Trowa, indeed, had taken him into his mouth. He could feel the warmth and heat surrounding his skin and the moisture from Trowa's mouth. Involuntarily raising his hips, he met each stroke move for move as Trowa demonstrated his want and desire.

Trowa reached up, placing his hands on Wufei's hips and continued in tasting him, enticing him with further pleasuring.

Wufei reached down, placing his hand on Trowa's head and pulling gently on the light brown hair.

"Trowa..." he whispered as he wanted more. He _needed_ more.

"Ask me," Trowa breathed sharply. "All you have to do is ask."

Wufei closed his eyes.

//Hilde pleaded with him, tears filling her eyes as she begged forgiveness. He had come home to find her laying on the couch. She had been crying for some time, he could tell, but could not bring himself to _not_ be angry.

"Why, Hilde," he asked. "What have I done to deserve this," he questioned her tears.

"Wufei... I'm sorry..." she pleaded. "I'm not asking you to stay.. just to understand and forgive me..."

"UnderSTAND?" Wufei growled at her, his hands in fists by his side. "You could have just _told_ me, Hilde! You didn't have to go behind my back! Do you think that Duo's doing what he did makes it ok for you to do it to _me_?"

"No, Wufei," Hilde cried angrily, "I never said That! I don't deny what I did or that it was wrong," she snapped. "I don't deny that I have feelings for Trowa!" She paused and observed his silent reaction, tears racing down her cheks. "I only wanted a taste," she whispered.

"Onna," Wufei hissed, "all you had to do was _ask_."//

That was a painful memory. Her tears were as real as his pain was. But there had been something more. She had admitted to having feelings for his best friend. And what had become of that?

Wufei felt tears stinging his eyes as he neared his high. Trowa knew just how to move above him and just how to get a rise out of him.

Trowa moved slowly, reaching to Wufei's tightened opening. SLowly he inserted his finger and watches as Wufei lifted his hips gently. All the memories of their first time together came filtering in. He had finally convinced Wufei to stop being mad at Hilde and enticed him into a movement of seduction.

//"Trowa..." he gasped at the other former pilot's ministerings. He'd felt sensations like this before from Hilde's mouth, but not quite as precise. It was true what they said... a man knew just the way another man could take it.

He didn't know why he was so nervous but he couldn't help but worry if now _he_ was going to be walked in on. He let his head fall backward as one hand fell onto Trowa's head.

"God..." he moaned as he felt Trowa wrapping his lips around the thickness of his straining organ. Before he knew it, Trowa had completely stripped him and was now prepping him gently. With tender ease and necessary roughness, Trowa pushed his way inside, needing this from the Chinese young man. He kissed the soft lips, tasting the desire that had been waiting for him.//

Trowa felt Wufei's arms wrap around him. He had blindly guided himsefl into Wufei's warmth and now moved slowly inside of him.

"I want to bring her here," Trowa whispered into Wufei's ear.

Wufei nodded in a heated tinge of submission. It would be good to have her with them again. It seemed that so much had changed since their leaving but at the same time it had helped them figure out their place in each other's lives. He didn't want to think about that right now, only the pleasure he was feeling.

Only the sensation of a steamy liquid on his stomach indicated his climatic high. The tightening in his groin and the strain within him were now one in the same. Trowa had pushed him over the limit and released himself inside of Wufei.

They hadn't made love in some time and it was a most desired effect for Trowa to fall limp into Wufei's arms.

"Let's bring her her," Trowa whispered again before sleep captured him and took over his waking life.

~~~*~~~

Wufei had let it go, not giving Trowa an answer. He didn't want to say yes and then find out that Hilde wouldn't come. He stared out the window of the shuttle at the picture of the earth before him. The order billet in his suitcase traced itself through his mind, not letting him let go of the thought.

Trowa had been a bit upset about his travel news but settled quickly. Wufei had ravaged him throughout the night before he left. It was only for three days anyway. He'd be home by the weekend. They hadn't talked about Trowa's request and he wouldn't. He'd figure this out first.

Four and a half hours later, Wufei walked into the Preventer building with his counterpart from Anzu, uniform and all. He'd been greeted by several of his former co-workers and had even met up with Quatre and Heero.

They had exchanged brief greetings before they had to enter inot the conference room. Five hours after that, Quatre was insisting that they get together before Wufei left back to the colony. Agreeing that they would, Wufei walked out to his rental and drove away. For the moment, he had other business to attend.

Having learned that Hilde had been on her third day of vacation, he drove the distance to her home. What used to be _their_ home. She wouldn't be expecting hom so he wouldn't have been surprised if she wasn't home. Amazingly she was.

Hilde opened her eyes. Had someone really knocked or was she dreaming? Rubbing her eyes, sleepily, she walked to the door, glancing at her watch and then flatteing her unruly hair. Not taking the time to ask who it was or look into the peep hole, she opened the door irritated at being woken up and then flinched at the light from the sun.

Wufei watched her a bit and then stood into the way of the light, casting a shadow that allowed her to see clearly. Hilde adjusted her sight a bit better and then burst inot a happy squeal. She rushed him as tears began to fall, feeling his arms tighten around her tiny frame.

Wufei inhaled her scent and needed to possess her right then. Should he? _Could_ he? Before he could contemplate his thoughts, Hilde dragged him inside and had pinned him to the door, kissing him on his lips and neck.

"Wufei..." she moaned, "God I missed you..." she cried and felt his lips on hers. "Make love to me," she begged. "Please..."

Wufei lifted her, holding her as she wrapped her legs around his waist. Taking her to the bed they once shared, he placed her gently down and then began in pleasuring her. He kissed her and tasted her every inch, refreshing his memory of what she liked. He exchanged in oral fascinations with her and found that he'd missed her more than he originally thought. Tasting her hidden jewel, he inserted a finger into her and then crawled his way up to her.

"Fill me," she requested again. "Now!"

Wufei studied her a moment and felt a wicked smile tug at his lips. Leaning down to kiss her fully, he obeyd her command and dove into her, falling short of complete penetration due to the fact that she was impeccably tight.

"Oh God," he moaned and then slid further in, filling himself with her sensuos body.

Hilde moaned, biting her lip at his impalement of her, trying desperately to move with him. Holding back her tears as he moved within her, she lifted her hips to meet him completely. She hadn't realized that not having sex in five months would cause this much pressure. It didn't matter because the pleasure overrode any inch of pain that might have reared it's ugly head.

Within seconds, they were reacquainted with each other, completing the fit perfectly as they had before. They were in sync and rhythmic in motion, holding each other, sweating and grinding into the other's body.

Wufei woke to the glow of light that infiltrated the room. It was a presence invading the darkness just before the beginning of pre-dawn that would indicate the rise of the morning. He turned his head to read the clock at four thirty-two a.m.

Rolling over, trying to untangle himself from the sheets that wrapped him and Hilde together, he pulled her closer to him, kissing her temple and watching her stir lightly. He wanted to have her again, before he had to get up and go again to face the Preventer business. They hadn't even talked about how long he would be staying or why he was there or anything else. They had made love half the night and slept the other half. But he would tell her eventually that on Friday afternoon he would be leaving back to L One.

It didn't take long for Hilde to wake up and to adhere to his desires, spreading herself again for his entrance. She needed it as much as he did and knowing that he could be gone that very night, she didn't want to deprive either of them of the sentiment they felt at this moment.

Wufei rocked inside of her, holding her as she whimpered and moaned with him inside of her. Hilde glided her nails down his back, slightly pressing in further at the base of his spine and then let go. She stared into his onyx eyes and revelled in his touch that prickled her skin.

"I love you," she whispered and pulled herself up to kiss him.

Wufei kissed her back and held her close to him.

"Come back with me," he whispered just as softly, without missing a beat.

Hilde paused, trying to squeeze him to stop but it only enhanced the sensation and she didn't want him to. He had asked her the one thing she had been waiting for over five months to hear. But alas, even as she wanted to do nothing other than, she was still assigned to Lady Une's department.

"I can't," she returned and suddenly the mood was lost.

Wufei tried to keep it going but he couldn't. He didn't want to go back to Trowa and tell her this. What would he say?

=Oh, by the way, I slept with Hilde but she wouldn't come back.=

He kissed her deeply, showing her that he wasn't _mad_ at her but she knew that he was disappointed. She wanted nothing more. She would have given up her position to go back with him and be with him and Trowa but she couldn't.

"I know," he said and had slid away from her, knowing it was time for him to get up anyway. "Can I come back tonight after the conference," he asked.

"Wufei... of _course_," she answered and watched him go into her bathroom and shower.

~*~

All the day, Hilde could only think of his request of her. He almost had tears in his eyes when she said she couldn't. Why couldn't she? Because she was in Une's Company? Because she was still military? It hadn't occured to her that she had already gained the option of voluntary service cut from her time served until the moment that he knocked on the door. It suddenly became clear that all she would have to do is put in a request for terminal leave and then she could go. But would Une approve her request?

Her face fell as she opened the door. Wufei stepped in, grabbing her before he noticed her forlorn expression.

"Onna? What's wrong with you," he asked her.

Hilde looked up into his eyes and sighed. He was so beautiful and she wanted him to no end but she couldn't do this to herself. There was no way Une would approve that request; not for anything other than the fact that _she_ was the reason Trowa and Wufei were transferred out.

"I want to, Wufei... but I can't and I can't have you here knowing that I am going to lose you again whenever you leave... If you can stay at the barracks... please," she said and turned away from him.

Wufei watched her silently thanking God or the Fates because he'd been thinking the same thing. Not that he didn't want to try to convince her to go but he knew she couldn't. He knew Une would never allow that. She had obviously made her decision and so he would leave, respecting her wishes.

"Can I have a hug before I go," he asked softly.

Hilde turned around, tears streaking her face and she fell into his arms as sobs overtook her body.

"I shouldn't have come," he whispered into her hair. "I'm sorry."

"No," she whispered "I'm glad you did... but I can't..." she cried and felt his lips searching for hers. Without hesitation, she moved to meet them, knowing what this would lead into and it wouldn't be for another four and a half hours that he would leave her again. But it had to be that way and so after making love to her, filling her completely, he left her sleeping in the fetal position and headed for the base. Friday afternoon, he left back to L One without a good-bye, without a last kiss... without Hilde.

Part Four--Orders Denied

Hilde had spent the rest of her 'vacation' time crying. Wufei had left without a word, without a call and without her. He hadn't even stopped by to ask her one more time. Perhaps it was for the best. After all, how could she go with him? What would happen to her military wise? What did she care, anyway? She didn't want to _be_ in the military anymore. She only remained because it paid for the roof over her head. But if she was with Trowa and Wufei... _they_ would take care of her.

On Monday morning, Hilde walked into Lady Une's office, saluting her as she reported to be reinstated back to working assignment. As butterflies churned in her stomach, she cleared her throat to speak.

"I would like a chit to request transfer to Kaigan," she said.

Une narrowed her eyes at the girl before her and shook her head.

"Request denied," she stated flatly and watched as Hilde saluted her and left the office.

Tears dared to fall from her eyes but Hilde would not allow that. She needed permission to request a transfer for permanent or temporarily assigned duty. She did _not_ need permission to request her termination. By every right of her status, she was given the opportunity to step down or go into reserves or remain active duty until further notice. She was given the right to pend service should she decide the military was not for her any longer. The former pilots did not _have_ that option as she did. They were stuck in their postions until their service time was up.

What would she do? She didn't know but whatever it intaled had to start with Sally or Noin and would end up, ultimately, with Lady Une.

Walking into the records department, Hilde headed straight for her CO's desk and grabbed a request chit off the woman's desk and went to one of the small desks in the office to begin filling it out. Within three hours of her day, she was denied _again_. Instead, she was given orders of a new kind. If she wanted off this base so badly, they would send her. But they would send her at _their_ convenience to _their_ specified location.

"You want me to go to the Camen Islands," she asked, staring at the order sheet in front of her.

"Look, Hilde. I tried to get what you asked for but you know damn well that Une will _not_ go for that."

Hilde glared at her officer, remembering the woman's rank of Lieutenant Colonel and then left the office. She was to leave to Duo's base in two weeks and stay there for a temporary deployment of six months. There was _no_ way. She was not going to do that and if she had to go higher, she would. Though she didn't know just how high she would have to take it until she took her final statement to Lady Une for a third review.

Walking into the office for the last time that day, Hilde saluted and then presented her case.

"I do not wish to pend your orders for me by going above your head, General, but I have every desire of requesting terminal leave from my post and have every intention of seeing that it be granted."

Lady Une sat back in her chair and stared behind her at Sally who, by law of military works, had to be present during such a request. Focussing her attention back on Hilde, she sighed.

"Then let it begin," she said. "You want out of my military, it will be a normal discharge. You will serve your time for me if you want honors."

Hilde lowered her eyes to the woman before her. Not really understanding why Une had held so much rage or aggrivation toward her, she did not let her internal fear reveal itself.

"So be it, Lady Une. I'm not in it for honors _anyway_, Ma'am."

Sally watched in slight distaste as Hilde placed the request for terminal leave on Une's desk and saluted once more. Seconds later, she was escorting Hilde back down the hall to their office.

"The General was not keeping you from your desire, Hilde. Only trying to show you that you needed to be more respectful of the scenarios in which you found yourself."

Hilde turned, ignoring Sally's words, sighing her own. All she wanted was to be in Wufei's arms and beneath Trowa's tenderness. She didn't care about the looks she received, she didn't care about the compromising situation. All she cared about was her happiness and theirs. She needed to be with them and she would go to any lengths necessary to get there.

~~~*~~~

Wufei got up from bed. He stared at the clock a moment, orienting himself with the fact that he was awake at two a.m. and then left the room as he headed down the short hall to the door. Trowa forgot his key again, he thought but then remembered that he had come home early from watch. He shook his head, mentally smacking himself as he told himself that Trowa had been in his bed. How could he forget?

Opening the door, he blinked a few times and then looked back at the darkened room before turning back to face the person in the doorway.

"What are you doing here? How did you get here? What happened," he asked as he stepped aside, letting her in.

"I missed you and I needed to be with you and Trowa," she whispered. "I couldn't stay there anymore and when you left last week I figured you wouldn't want me anymore. I had to come find out on my own if that was true."

Wufei stared at her, wondering if he was dreaming because this had surely seemed like the kind of dream he would be stuck having. Nothing made sense. It seemed as though they were having some off the wall conversation and he really had no part of it but again, it was extremely early in the morning also.

"So... what? You went AWOL*?"

Hilde nodded.

"My orders were denied, my request was disregarded... I put in a chit for terminal leave and it was not approved. So I ran."

"They'll come after you here, Hilde," Wufei chastised. "You should not have done that."

Hilde stared at him, tears forming in her eyes. Was it true, then? He truly did not want her there and his request that one day was only to appease some conscious thought of guilt? Was that it?

"I..."

"Come here," he whispered and held her as she began to sob gently in his arms.

"Hilde?"

Hilde pulled away from Wufei and watched as Wufei moved out of the way. Trowa stood there in the light, squinting at the brightness before opening his eyes wide at her. It _was_ her. He stared at her a moment, remembering how Wufei had told him of his escapade with her. Briefly the anger rose but it subsided because she was there.

"Hil?" he asked again and she ran into his arms and kissed him.

"Trowa..." she breathed as he held her tight.

"What are you... I mean..." he couldn't find the words to ask and looked up at Wufei.

"She's gone AWOL," he said with a stern look to which Trowa put his hands on her shoulders and pushed her away slightly. "Hilde... why? They'll come looking for you here..." he repeated Wufei's words.

"Trowa... I wanted to be here," she said and turned to Wufei, "With _both_ of you... they denied my request..."

They both watched her cry, Trowa pulling her into a warm embrace as he stared at Wufei. Unfortunate as the situation arising would be, he could only think of having her in his bed right then and now. It was aweful, he knew but he wanted her. He _had_ wanted her. Trowa lifted pleading eyes to Wufei and waited approval, for he didn't know what but when he gained it, he led Hilde down the hall and shut the door.

"I know this is aweful," he whispered as he kissed her lips, "and I'm really sorry you had to go AWOL... you shouldn't have done that," he reprimanded again as he stripped her, enforcing his anger through an array of assaulted kisses.

Biting and nipping at her skin as he revealed her soft, creamy flesh, he sucked on her neck and kissed her lips as he lowered himself and her clothing to reveal other parts of her body. Hilde could think of nothing else while he did this to her, knowing that it was wrong. That they should not be jumping into this right at this moment but she could be gone by the morning so why waste time?

She began to moan lightly, whimpering as Trowa found her muff and had situated himself between her legs as he tasted every bit of her. He spread her apart gently, inserting a finger into her as he drank her juices that flowed generously into his mouth. Hilde wanted to scream out. She put one hand on his head and reached up to her own hair, rubbing it back, pulling it as he inflicted infectious pleasure upon her. She wanted more and he could tell.

Trowa worked her gently while she stood in the middle of the room naked with him beneath her and his finger inside of her. His tongue danced and lapped at her hardened passion and the liquid heat that surrounded it and continued in doing so until she cried out at the onslought of her orgasm that he took away from her, not allowing her to feel it completely. Only seconds passed between his withdrawl of his finger to the penetration of his erection into her. He pumped within her until both of them were panting and breathing, holding her while she whimpered and broke out in tears as he pushed her to the very core limit and then, again, took it away from her.

She needed to be completed and he knew just how to keep her from the ultimate result. He had always known and no doubt had learned how to do it to Wufei as well. She didn't mind. She wanted to be able to enjoy all that he could give to her and wanted to experience every aspect of making love to him. It was only seconds that he'd brought her back down, not allowing her to go over the edge when he left her body completely. He walked to the door, opening and called down the way for Wufei. They would share this moment with her, the three of them together. They'd done it before but it was so long ago. Now they would rekindle that magic that had led them into this relationship to begin with.

Grabbing Wufei's hand, he led him to the bed, commanding Hilde to get up and she did. She sat on her knees in front of Wufei and began kissing him, feeling Trowa move onto the bed behind her. As she moved to Wufei's neck, she kissed lightly, opening her mouth and taking his skin and sucking lightly while flicking her tongue over his flesh. All the while as she moved down his chest, she lowered his shorts, feeling him rest his hand on her head. Only seconds passed when he was finally exposed, his shorts at a common level at his feet. She took him fully into his mouth as he guided her and sucked hard at first and then softened her lips a bit as she knew that they would each allow her to have her feel of them.

Trowa let one hand rest on the smoothness of her rear end that was now almost perfect to his level. She rested on all fours, being guided by Wufei and felt Trowa's finger insert from behind. She wanted to scream, to bite down on the thickness in her mouth but she didn't. She continued in pleasuring Wufei while Trowa f**ked her with his finger from behind. She wanted more, though. If she slid her teeth down his shaft, Wufei would surely 'punish' her for that and would give her what she desired. So she did.

Wufei growled in slight irritation at the grazing of her teeth on the sensitive flesh but at the same time, it felt so good that he made her do it again.

"Do it Right," he growled at her but she didn't. Again, she let him feel her teeth. As his eyes tried desperately to close tightly, he moaned in pleasure and then pushed her away into Trowa who caught on to the game play and held her as he pulled her backward.

"You want to bite," Wufei hissed at her. "Is That what you want?"

"F**k You," Hilde growled back at him to which Wufei spread her legs apart semi-violently.

He teased her wet opening, only allowing her to feel him there, knowing that she desperately wanted to feel him inside of her. She moved her hips to try and get his finger inside of her but he wouldn't allow it to happen. He rubbed her juices up and down over her anus and back up again. He moved to the side and bit the inside of her thight, leaving his mark right at the crease of her leg and hip.

Hilde tossed her head back lightly, moaning her pleasure, feeling Trowa's hands under her arms and then a slight wetness on her nipples. She leaned up a bit and kissed Trowa's stomach, tasting it as he leaned over her, suckling her breast the way a new born would. Only a moment passed when she found Trowa's throbbing member and took it into her mouth and then made a high pitched squeal as Wufei inserted his finger into her wetness and then pulled out completely. She heard Trowa moan with intensity as she sucked on him and then raised her hips without thinking about it when Wufei stuck his wet finger into her back side.

She had never been taken like that in all their time together and she wasn't sure she wanted to be but at the same time, she was so full of adrenaline and lust that she didn't care and would not have minded. Trowa moved, removing himself from her mouth and then held her, easing her tension, calming her so that Wufei could get more leverage into her. He held her as Wufei pushed further into her and moved slowly. Before she realized, she was moving in rhythm with his motion as though he were making love to her the 'proper' way.

"Oh God..." she whimpered and squeezed her eyes shut when she felt his tongue at her clit. "Oh.... God..." she cried out again and wanted to jerk her body for him to move faster but he calmed her.

"That's it," Trowa whispered. "That's it... let it come..."

"Goooood...." Hilde cried, raising her hips in the air, unable to get enough. She wanted more, she wanted deeper penetration, she wanted them both inside of her, she didn't care how.

Crying, tears falling fast down the side of her face, she was writhing in more pleasure than she thought she could ever experience and within seconds, it was over. Only because Wufei had obviously learned from Trowa.

Wufei pulled completely away from her and instructed Trowa, silently to lay down. He did as he was told and watched as Wufei gently nudged her out of the way. He crawled up to Trowa's lips, kissing him gently and then pulling him over slightly, to the middle of the bed. He pulled Hilde up, kissing her lips and exploring her mouth with his tongue before he turned her away from him and lifted her up onto Trowa's shaft. This would take a little bit of re-coordinating but with his desire, her need and Trowa's edge, they would accomplish it.

Trowa pulled Hilde down to him, kissing her lips as he placed both hands on either side of her buttocks. Hilde suddenly felt the taste of fear at what she could only imagine was about to happen. Was this a good idea? Was it going to hurt? He had just had his finger inside of her, how much worse could it be?

Trowa recaptured her lips as she pulled away in a frantic haze, panicing at what was about to happen. He rubbed her hair and kept her focussed on his kiss, lifting one hand to the back of her neck. Hilde felt her body calm down and the fear subside into desired need. Trowa reached between them and rubbed her hardened jewel for added pleasure just as Wufei gently penetrated her from the other side.

"Mmmmmmmm...." she cried softly into Trowa's mouth and then pulled away, opening her mouth as a gasp for air and an escaped sound of pleasure filled the air around them.

Wufei entered slowly, having to calm himself to keep from slamming hard into her. She was not Trowa who was used to this by now and he had to be gentle.

Slowly he began moving as their bodies all worked together to create the much needed lubrication and rhythm to be able to do this as a three-way dance. They moved together, as if rehearsed or second nature, Hilde adjusting to Wufei's hardness inside of her from another postition while at the same time, having Trowa pumping within her. If the military came and took her away from them, they'd never be able to take this moment away from her. She didn't care, though. She stopped caring the moment she read the chit report.

//"Orders Denied."//

Feeling herself close to the edge, now by two wild forces, she tightened around both of them, Wufei trying to get her to relax but she couldn't. She was so close and needed to have her release. Trowa growled at the intensity of her tightened sheath and then moaned loudly when she squeezed again. He shot his seed deep into her and then heard Wufei let out a similar gutteral moan as he, too, released into her.

Hilde wrapped her arms around Trowa's neck as she buried her face into the junction of his neck and shoulder. She screamed out her orgasm as Wufei continued to move behind her, pumping harder it seemed and Trowa moved beneath her in the same motion. She had only cried once during their previous escapades but this was so much more intense than that time had been. This time she had them _both_ inside of her and her orgasm hit a new level; a new high.

Trowa held her as Wufei removed himself from her first and did his best to wipe her clean without hurting her. Slowly, he lifted her off of himself and held her as she shivered into his arms, the tears falling like rain and the sobs gently shaking her body. "God..." she cried softly, "Oh God... I can still feel it," she whispered.

Wufei moved in between her legs and dove into her wetness, tasting Trowa's seed on her and in her. He watched Trowa move his hand down to where he was and began tasting and licking the remains of their session. Trowa rubbed her clit again and sent her cringing and screaming as Wufei ate her and he rubbed her.

Hilde did not think that she could be so close to orgasmic pleasures this way and have them continue in feeding her body they way they did. But they did. Finally, she was able to completely release herself and had come _hard_ into Wufei's mouth, pushing herself against Trowa's chest as she screamed loudly in the pain of ecstacy. If they came for her, she would fight them because what she had just been through was something she was going to need again in her life.

She fell limp into Trowa's chest, his arms wrapping around her belly and could barely make out Wufei's form as he moved up and to the side of them. Through half slits, she watched as Wufei kissed Trowa hungrily and smiled as she felt a sudden warmth to the other side of her. While Trowa kept her warm, Wufei had made to retrieve a towel or something in which he placed under them all and then crawled in next to her. The dawn had already began to set in, allowing the colonized sun to rise and shed it's light into their room. They were not getting up though as it was Saturday and neither had watch until Tuesday. Hilde had already fallen asleep and was breathing semi-heavy breaths of what seemed to be pure bliss. If she'd been awake to acknowledge her thoughts, she would have been able to tell them that she hadn't slept like this in forever. But her subconscious thought told her she could tell them when she woke up.

Trowa and Wufei, too, fell asleep in her presence, Trowa holding her in his arms, Wufei with his arm across her side and on Trowa's stomach. They'd deal with the rest later.

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Lady Une stared down at her request to have Hilde retrieved and courtmartialed for her behavior and having gone AWOL from her post. She sighed and shook her head with a bit of resentment in her eyes. What did it matter? Hilde had done everything right and Une had no real reason of denying her request other than her own personal opinions and view of the subject. She did not agree with the situation; with Hilde being in a relationship in which she was the mistress of two of her preventers while they, too, were lovers. Again she stared at the papers before her and sighed, resigning herself to agree to the statement written.

"General Une, it is with all due respect that I hand this back to you with this statement that I hope you will take to heart and follow. Love sees no color or gender or state of mind. Love is Love and I hereby announce on written form that your request for the retrieval and courtmartialing of one Lieutenant Second Class, Hilde Schbeiker has been considerd. Orders Denied."

The END.

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*Anzu is Japanese for "apricot"
*Kaigan is Japanese for "beach"
*TAD stands for "Temporary Assigned Duty"
*AWOL: Absent With Out Leave