He leaned back in the massive leather armchair and watched pensively through
the window. Night had long ago fallen, and, in the ambiant darkness, every
faintest light seemed a little bit brighter. Spots of shimmering colors
and reflexions pierced here and there the deep and velvety night that seem
to melt the sky and the ground, leaving only and endless and shiny cover.
His eyes stopped at some small habitations: the distance, his current
catlike mood and maybe that sweet glass of harsh brandy made it look like
a diamond rivière lazily spread on a black silk sheet, waiting for
an owner to warm it, make it live...
Hilde swallowed silently as the woman
led her through the long corridors. Never had she thought she would find
herself here one day...
She knew perfectly that for any OZ
ensign, meeting personally Treize Kushrenada, the one and only, was supposed
to be an unreachable dream. But, right now, she would have given anything
to be far, very far. Why had they brought her here? There weren't many
guards. Her mind quickly transformed this statement in 'There weren't many
witnesses.'...
They had probably 'let her in' knowing
that this was the last thing she would see. She restrained herself from
shivering at the prospect. She was very aware of the gravity of her
situation
: She had disobeyed her orders, betrayed almost openly OZ and she had been
the only one to have a close encounter with that Gundam pilot,
yet.
She had refused to talk during the
interrogatory, assuming that they wouldn't take the risk to harm her before
having learn anything useful. She had been hopeful when she had realized
that no official step has been made, in order to pass sentence on her,
which meant that they were obviously wanting something, or else, she would
have been judged and sentenced to spent the rest of her short life in the
same cell she had learned to appreciate those past few days, at the very
least...
But she was there.
Sure, General Kushrenada's private
quarters were far more cosy than a tiny cell, but the knowledge that they
had probably lost patience and that they were undoubtebly going to question
her the hard way, in the cautious privacy of the place, made her forget
the agreeable surroundings.
The officer glanced sharply at the
petite figure following her. Her head was bowed, but she could tell that
the girl's eyes didn't miss any detail. She chuckled inwardly at the thought
that, maybe, the child was hoping to escape, and was, for that matter,
trying to remember every corridor they wandered through. She couldn't help
but wonder how exactly he was going to proceed to make this stubborn brat
talk. Obviously, the mind-numbing interrogatories had failed, and they
had, thanks God or whoever was in charge of this, manage to avoid any
'physical'
interrogatory. Not that she cared, but they couldn't afford having her
permanently damaged before she had talked.
Tout n'est plus qu'ombre, rien
ne ment
Le temps demeure et meurt
pourtant
Tombent les
apparences
Les amants se perdent en
s'aimant |
Now, everything is only shadows,
nothing lies
Time stays and yet it
dies
Appearances fall
Lovers loose themselves by
loving. |
He was now picturing idly the 'owner'
in his mind, rotating his wrist slowly, creating small golden yellow amber
waves that fight each other before dying against the confining glass.
Strangely
enough, his imagination felt more than it saw. He still couldn't give his
fantasy definite features, but he could almost already feel the contrast
between her warm supple, silky skin and the icy, hard diamonds, their
obscene
brightness, the colors shocking and outstanding permanently each other,
making the discreet paleness of her downy flesh even more
aristocratic...
He was snapped out of his
rêverie
by a faint knock on the heavy doors of his quarters. His little guest.
He didn't know whether to take this deadly seriously or simply admit that
this interrogatory promised to be the more interesting in a very long
time...
"Come in..."
She entered, pushing softly her
prisoner,
who seemed both uneasy and unwilling to go any further. Though he would
never allow himself to loose his composure, or any other vulgar display
of emotion, he couldn't help but cock a bemused eyebrow at the sight before
him. Her file said she was fifteen... He would have easily thought she
was younger, shouldn't have he known better. Actually, it was hardly
believable
that this could be the 'traitor to the cause', the 'terrorist affiliated
to the Gundam pilots', The MS thief... And the list of her presumed crimes
went on and on...
He gazed with curiosity to the
'terrorist';
she was rather short, considering her age, with spiky and passably mussed
dark blue hair. Her bowed haid, along with the 'diplomatic' frown she made,
prevented him to look at her eyes, however. He promised himself to correct
this later. 'Know the ennemy.'
The puzzled officer left silently,
casting a last and otherwise unreadable look at the two, now left
alone.
He was about to smile, but
successfully
stopped his lips. Now was the time to impress her, she would only be easier
to trap with some sweetness later... He gestured to two elegant and comfy
armchairs, at the other end of the vast room and she followed him obediently
and, almost despite herself sheepishly, as he sat and waited for her to
do the same, his calm and stern expression never leaving his face. She
tried to glance at him, but all she caught was a disappointed teacher's
face. She felt knots forming in her stomach, this was so weird : The minute
before she was ready to face death. Now it looked like she was gonna be
scolded, and she was even more afraid. What the heck was going
on?
Hilde was sitting uncomfortably on
the vast armchair he had gestured to, her hands folded on her lap, her
head bowed, more to avoid meeting his patient gaze than in real humility.
She couldn't actually see him, but she knew his eyes hadn't left her even
a single second since she had entered the room. She swallowed nervously,
refraining the urge to squirm at the thick silence between
them.
"Sir... Do you expect me to talk
first?" She almost clasped her hands on her mouth as soon as the sentence
grazed her lips. Of course he wasn't! No one was supposed to address him
unless they were clearly asked to! She realized how insolent she had just
been. 'Why should it matter, anyway? You're already dead!' A little voice
in her head remarked smugly. She didn't see him cock an amused eyebrow
as she was trying to sort out her confused thoughts.
"I guess that now, you will never
know." He stated calmly, if not leisurely.
She felt her cheeks grow hot and
turn to a bright cherry red at his witty comment, and wondered if
embarassment
was part of his strategy. There were a few more minutes of heavy silence.
This time she wouldn't speak first, the lesson had been clear enough. He
finally broke the virtual wall separating them by standing up, pouring
a little of a golden alcohol in a glass and offering it to her. She stared
at it warily, too concerned about what, exactly, he was trying to make
her drink, to care about the fact that she was being openly indecisive,
and thus, seriously offending. She eventually shook her head slowly, to
refuse the drink, which caused his smile to turn ever so slightly
predatory.
He considered the glass, then his
guest, before speaking in a tone that truly froze her, since, even with
the highest solicitation of her intellect, she definitively couldn't decide
if it was jocking or warning. "So... I estimate your weight at 88.3 pounds,
the next contusive instrument is situated at 3 meters of your armchair,
but your reaction time and the fact that you will have to stand up are
two serious handicaps... Young lady, if I ever intented to introduce any
drug in your body, all I would have to do is pin you and proceed. I hold
no estime and have no need for such practices... This said, will you do
me the pleasure to accept that drink?"
Hilde stiffened, truing, and failing,
to keep control on her every move, she musn't tremble. 'Show no fear' She
repeated herself as a mantra, as she brang the glass to her lips. She drank
a small sip, slowly and warily, and almost bit her lip when the liquid
entered her mouth and slid down her throat. Had she ever drunk anything
stronger than beer before? 'You moron!' She scolded herself. At first it
had seemed sugary, syrupy, somewhat sweet... But now. It burnt. It burnt
-very- hard.
Was this a new form of torture?
Or maybe he was trying to make her drunk so she would talk? Hell... She
needed a glass of water!!
Treize watched, amused, the reaction
of the young girl. She was beet red, a white-knuckled grip on the arm-rests
of her armchair and she was obviously trying desperatly to keep from
coughing
or crying. When he considered she had suffered enough, he went for a carafe
of cool water. he poised the glass against her lips, prying them open,
trying to glance at her red and slightly teary eyes, and forced her to
drink it progressively, unconsciously rubbing her back in a soothing motion
all the while.
When Hilde was back to normal, her
first reaction was to ignore her surroundings and let her temper get the
best of her. "You! Why did you do that for??!!" The minute he open his
mouth to answer, she registered her mistake. Her big mistake.
She was surprised, however, if not
astonished, to find that her outburst had only succedded in making him
smile. "There... I guess I owe you an apologize for this
incident..."
Hilde almost smiled. He was friendly
after all. maybe he meant no real harm, maybe...
"Now that you seem healthier, shall
we converse?" He said, sitting back with a relaxed but expectant and
demanding
gaze.
Hilde clenched her fists, he was
damn good. She hadn't expected such a volte-face.
"... Converse about Gundams..." He
added, tilting his head.
She kept silent for a few moments,
thoughts spinning too fast for her own judgement in her head. He had been
aiming at this from the start. There was no need to dream anymore, the
wolf had simply momentarily slipped in a sheep costume. But she had to
answer... Oh well! Anyway she was already toasted, better leave with some
style. at least, she would give Duo something to be proud of. "Do you always
play with people like this?" She retorted impudently, a brave smile
appearing
on her features. Boldness made her feel kinda dizzy,and she felt like she
could dare anything, now.
Treize's cool expression betrayed
nothing of his confusion. Was that small, insignificant, cute and insolent
thing... Challenging him?? If it was, then he hadn't lost his night. It
had been a while since his last encounter with the equally insolent little
dragon, and she could almost have unnerved him... She was great. "Should
I understand that you have no intent to talk?" He purred, taking off his
white gloves.
Hilde watched him do, her boldness
had abandonned her, and there was a lump forming in her throat. Oh God.
Great. You made him mad. Not only is he gonna kill you, but you're gonna
suffer for free!
He smirked, as he saw her backing
off. "Well... I'll talk then. I can help but feeling some pity for you.
Sacrifying everything for a terrorist... Not to mention that he doesn't
seem to feel the urge to come and take you with him..." He snarled, playing
with the fingers of his gloves.
Hilde felt burning tears threaten
to roll down her cheeks. Her eyes felt hot and itching, already. "He...
He... Shut up!! You don't know him!!" She sobbed, wiping her eyes crudely
with her sleeves.
"But I assume you do." He simply
stated.
She realized he had succeded where
all the other had failed. She smiled bitterly, he wasn't the leader of
OZ for nothing, after all. She let fall the tears freely, not even trying
to wipe them or hold them back. What was the use?
"You're gonna be disappointed...
I know next to nothing about him..." She sobbed, attempting to smirk, but
only managing a pathetic and weak smile.
Her reaction surprised him. He didn't
allow himself such displays of emotions, but he rarely witnessed any either.
He felt a certain curiosity, watching that young girl weeping a torrent
on a carpet which she, obviously, ignored the price. It was sort of weird
intimacy to observe somebody indulging themselves so crudely, he
thought.
Always being the gentleman, he
eventually
approached to wipe away those disturbing shiny pearls that keep falling
and falling. A little distinction, for God's sake. He barely had the time
to react as she slapped his hand away, staring at him with exhausted,
desperate
but insolent eyes.
"You can look down at me, I don't
care if I die here! You're alone too! They all worship their general like
sheeps!" She spat, "But no one loves you! Who could?!" She finished,
challenging
him with teary but cruel eyes. Encouraged by his startled silence, she
went on, "I may not be very valuable for you, but who gives a damn about
the person you are?? When this war will be over, should you win or loose,
it will remain the same! Nobody will care! You're as lonely as
I..."
Hilde didn't see it coming, and she
realized only when the sharp noise resounded in the vast room. It hurt.
She felt her face grow hot, and the tears resumed their journey on her
pale cheeks. She felt like a child, she raised her head to see his hand
still in the air. She couldn't believe he had slapped her. Had what she
had said touched him? No... More likely vexed him. Still, it
hurt.
He gazed absently at her small figure,
shaking with sobs from time to time. She was a mess. Her clothes were
wrinkled,
her face pale and her eyes red. Her hair were mussed, matted hapazardly
to her forehead, and her hands a bit dirty. He tried to focused on something
else while he talked, to calm himself, and digest his sudden outburst.
"I think, young lady, that you could use a bath."
She eyed him as if he had said some
curse word for a few seconds, and her eyes narrowed, which was, in his
sense, the ultimate proof that feminine pride truly resided in the depths
of any woman, even that little unruly tomboy.
"Are you saying..." Hilde began,
her lips quivering with a rage overwhelming enough to make her dry her
tears.
"I wouldn't dare..." He mocked, almost
relieved by her anger. It was less puzzling than her earlier state, and
it made her easier to deal with. No. It definitively made him uneasy to
watch somebody crying.
Hilde's eyes widened for a brief
instant as he pushed the french doors and led in a bathroom that caught
her breath in her throat. Any sour comments she had stocked for him flied
away, and she could have smacked herself when she heard her own voice
whisper,
"For me?" Damn! She didn't want to look weak or frail, and all she had
found to answer was that. She glanced at his features, who held the
'I-have-a-point'
expression, and clenched her jaw. She had to be careful, she had now
understood
that the weirder he behaved, the easier she stumbled.
She heard the doors close and turned
back only to see he had left. She directed her gaze towards the bathtub
-correction- the swimming pool. She sighed, trying to sort out her confuse
thoughts as she gazed at the room. As much as she hated to admit, or to
even think it, it was magnificient. Never in her whole life had she seen
such a place. She bit her lower lip, still staring at the tub where clouds
of rose scentered steam floated slowly, forming harmonious volutes before
dissipating in the air. Somehow, it felt like betraying Duo, if she stepped
into the awaiting hot water. Not to mention that she didn't know what to
expect. Eventually, she decided to just give up. She was already caught,
anyway. Come what may, she would die clean and fresh.
She shrugged of her worn clothes,
letting the dark and dusty fabric fall on the floor. It was so warm. She
was naked and she didn't even shivered, so agreeable, she thought, before
slipping precautiously in the hot water. She just stood there for a while,
at first, feeling strange to be there in that tub which was big enough
to be her bathroom, but progressively, the warm liquid worked on her tired
limbs and her dry skin, and the scent, the silence, the exhaustion clouded
her senses. She sat gingerly in the bubbles and proceed to wash herself,
almost mechanically. She didn't even know if her mind was numb from pain
or just from surprise. She felt a bit lost, to be utterly sincere, and
that was the last thing she thought, before making herself comfortable
and staring at the ceiling, emptying her mind from her worries
momentarily.
Even his ceiling was elegant.
Damn.
Solitaire à un souffle
de toi
Si près tu
m'échappes
déjà
Mon intime
étrangère
Se trouver c'est se
défaire
A qui dit-on ces choses-là
? |
Lonely, barely a breath away
from you
So close, you already escape
me
My intimate
stranger
Finding each other is loosing
each other
Who can we tell these things
to? |
Treize smirked ever so slightly as
he heard the sound of water. So, even that 'terrifying terrorist' couldn't
resist a warm bath? How ironic. He could almost not blaming himself for
being addicted, at this rate.
Hilde stepped out slowly of the tub,
wrapping herself in a huge, white and soft towel that had obviouly been
laid there on purpose. She made her way towards her clothes, when, through
the a cloud of steam, she caught something that made her heart swell with
hope. A door. 'Stupid girl! You were too absorbed in self-pitying to notice,
of course!' She yelled at herself while approaching it. A dream. Unlocked.
Her grin grew even wider when she peered inside. It was his undoubtedly
his bedroom, but that was not the point. There was. A window!! She almost
bawled her joy out loud. It wasn't won, but, she could manage to escape,
maybe...
Not bothering with politeness, she
fumbled through a vast dresser and picked a white shirt. Too big. Who cares?
He had so many, he wouldn't miss it. She was already looking for a pair
of socks, when she felt something shifting behind her. She froze, and
flushed
considerably. He was comfortably sitting in an armchair, near the bed,
smiling smugly, watching her plotting her way of escape. Now, that was
annoying. She noticed he hadn't his stern blue uniform anymore, the only
thing left was a shirt, his white pants and boots. Numerous questions
whirled
in her mind. How had he managed to approach so silently? How long had he
been watching her? This last thought caused a new surge of shame to flood
her, and she really felt like, for an instant, if he didn't stop gazing
at her, she would cry again, or faint, which was another option. "I...
I..."
"I won't embarass you with painful
explanations, ensign Schbeiker, it was so childish and foreseeable. I can't
blame you for having tried..." He chuckled. Then, noticing her tomato-like
blush, he continued, "Don't worry... I am not going to demand my shirt
back either."
"... Can I keep the socks too?" She
didn't even care about what she said, at that point. Her feet were cold,
he probably wouldn't refuse... To hell with pride.
He simply nodded and motionned her
to sit on the edge of the vast bed. "What did you expect?"
"I... Don't know, Sir." She didn't
feel really bad, but she bowed her head, nonetheless, old habits die
hard.
He took a good look at her, and he
was surprised to find that, once washed and only clad in that oversized
shirt, which made her seem all the more fragile, she was really pretty.
Not the real beauty that you find in a woman, but a fresh and cute young
girl, with stunning cerulean eyes.
He smiled faintly. "What do we do
now, ensign Schbeiker? We've already stated the fact that you would be
totally useless as a witness, that you wouldn't be useful to trap the Gundam
pilot either, and our close encounter has proved to me that your 'terrorist
abilities' were largely overrated. So?" He sighed, cocking his head as
if waiting for an answer he already knew.
"I... Don't know, Sir."
Suddenly, he reached and turned the
light off, leaving the room only enlighten by the faint shimmering patches
outside. She stiffened, wary and almost fell of the bed when he
talked.
"Ensign Sch... Oh well... Hilde?
Why did you join OZ?" He asked, in a curious tone.
She blinked once, blinked twice.
And, eventually, she opted for sincerity. She told him the same words she
had told Duo, the same words that still meant her life at that time, though
it wasn't true anymore. "Because... I wanted to fight for the colonies.
I wanted to help." She breahed.
He turned his head to gaze at her
in wonder. "Really? You did trust us, then?"
"Of course! But I learned better..."
She answered, a bit taken aback.
"Better?" He asked, now genuinely
engrossed in the conversation.
"The colonies need peace... But not
the peace you offer them." She stated, almost on a lecturing tone. She
smiled inwardly, she wasn't trying to reason the leader of OZ. Was
she?
"Why did you take so long to made
up your mind?" He continued, his face wearing a puzzled expression, though
in the dark, she couldn't see him.
"I... I admired you and the others.
OZ seemed... So right..." She whispered, not believing what she was daring
to say.
"Right? About what?" He
asked.
"I don't know... Everything. We were
so proud... I felt worthy when I joined Oz, you know..." She
answered.
"Our soldiers are proud... And they
don't even know why... Is that what you're saying?" He
murmured.
She sensed a twinge of disappointment
in his voice and immediatly wished she had kept her mouth shut. "Why do
you ask me those things?" She said, trying to change the subject. "I return
you your question, what are you going to do with me?"
"I don't think we'll charge you with
terrorism, but you'll be judged for the MS stealing and having let the
pilot escape, I guess." He answered, sighing. She failed to notice the
tiny smile on his lips as he lied.
She folded her hands nervously on
her lap. She didn't want to go to jail. No. "Do we sleep, now?" She asked
innocently.
"Do you really expect me to close
my eyes long enough for you to escape?" He chuckled.
"No..." She sighed, and let herself
fall on the bed. It was pretty comfortable, and if those were her last
hours of liberty, she would sleep.
She couldn't however. Every now and
then, she would glance at him, waiting for a possible slumber. and he would
always gaze back, it last for something like an hour, until they both
decided
that there was no need to turn their heads so often for such a result.
They were now simply gazing at each other. The contest of the first asleep
had begun. Since no winner seemed to appear immediatly, she opted for
resuming
the talk. "Hey..." She whispered.
"Yes?"
"Can I ask a personnal question?"
She breathed, feeling a blush spread on her cheeks.
"Only if I obtain the same favor..."
He retorted.
"Lady Une... She seems pretty fond
of you..." She murmured, biting her lips as she realized how ridiculous
she was.
"A very personnal question...
Indeed..."
He sighed, "My dear Lady... I guess we're close, in a certain
way..."
"Then you love her??" She sat up
abruptly, eyes wide, all thoughts of being civil forgotten.
He smiled at her antics. He could
have ended the conversation right here, right now. She had no right to
so impudent and nosy, after all. But he somehow enjoyed it, the puerility
and the gravity of their position made it strangely pleasant he didn't
answer, however, and a thick silence fell in te room again. She lied, trying
to get some sleep.
He hadn't moved of his armchair for
what seemed like hours and... Wait. She took a closer look. His eyes were
closed. For the second time in the night, her hopes became almost
unbearable.
She slid stealthily out of the covers. and began to walk, a few meters
and there will be the door. She had to make it.
She didn't.
A strong arm grabbed her wrist swiftly
and spun her around. She found herself staring in two shimmering orbs,
glazed with anger and exasperation, and also a trouble she couldn't quite
explain.
Should I leave or should I
stay
Solitaire un souffle de
toi
Leavin'behind me
yesterday
Tout près tu m'echappes
déjà
Am I free or
forsaken |
Lonely, barely a breath away
from you
So close, you're already escaping
me
|
"I thought I had been clear enough..."
He whispered, feeling her shiver in his grasp.
"You... You can't blame me for having
tried... That's what you said." She retorted, unable to meet his
gaze, even in the dark.
She balled her fists and steeled
herself. Somehow, she was more angry than afraid, angry at herself, for
being so helpless, and for feeling... relieved. That was strange and
disturbing
: after she had helped him escape the moon base, she had immediatly been
caught and questionned; endless hours of repeating the same stupid words,
mechanically, 'I don't know', 'no', 'no'.... And she had felt so lonely.
She had never realized what being alone meant until that day. It meant
having nobody, but more than everyhing, it meant thinking to somebody,
night and day, and knowing you wouldn't ever see that somebody
again.
And now... She was standing in front
of the 'ennemy', wearing nothing but a shirt and a pair of socks, and she
felt relieved. He was crushing her wrist, and she felt
relieved.
She was certain that he understood
her loneliness, so similar to his. He had been cruel in his description,
but it was accurate, awfully accurate. Maybe she was dillusioning herself
and he didn't understand, but even then, she wanted to believe he did.
Let's pretend things were easier... Just for a few hours.
His free hand cupped her chin and
raised her head, so she couldn't avoid his eyes anymore. "I'm not blaming
you for having tried, I'm blaming you for having failed." He breathed,
staring at her intently.
His words slowly sunk in and her
eyes widened, as she fully realized their meaning. "Do you want me to...
Leave??" She asked, even more confused than before.
"I appreciate good friends... But
I also need good ennemies." He stated, his mind drifting towards the memory
of his last confrontation with the little dragon.
"Without Duo... I'm no ennemy..."
She chuckled bitterly. And a single tear of sheer despair made it's way
down her cheek.
He watched it roll slowly, and stopped
its course at the corner of her mouth, with his thumb. Then he pulled her
in a loose embrace. It wasn't a real hug, she thought, it lacked that
special
warmth, it felt like they were leaning on each other for support. Her cheek
was pressed slightly against his chest and she stared blankly at the wall,
her arms dangling on her sides, his hand brushing ackwardly her
back.
They stayed like this for a moment,
faking the intimacy they both missed, and eventually, she closed her eyes.
'Let's
pretend...' She couldn't pretend it was Duo holding her, but she could
just forget a bit and indulge herself.
He looked down at her still figure.
As far as he could remember, he had never slipped so far, except with her...
But it seemed so far now... Maybe they could pretend this was 'love at
first sight' He chuckled inwardly. No. It was just loneliness. Why not?
Life is short. And the night seemed welcoming...
She didn't make the slightest move
when his hands reach to her sides, tracing the curve of her small hips
through the shirt's fabric. She didn't move when he bent down and brushed
her lips in in a way that he had meant to be taunting but which only ended
up being feverish. Hilde closed her eyes as the butterfly brush of lips
became a deep, demanding and irresistible kiss. There was a question in
that urgent kiss and the explorative hands rumpling the shirt. She didn't
even want to think, so she just let herself float. Her passivity an implicit
acceptance of the next step.
She didn't resist when she felt the
shirt fall and pool silently at her feet. Soon she found herself lying
on the vast bed...
She opened her eyes to stare at him,
he truly was a mystery. Why was he doing this? She didn't think anything
bad would happen to her when dawn would come, now. That wasn't even the
price for her liberty. Her train of thoughts was disturbed, then broken,
when she started to feel strange nervous shivers wherever his lips touched,
in places she had never even really thought of. Somewhere in the back of
her mind, she registered that she hadn't blushed. Not even when she had
felt his hands covering her breasts, not even when he had reached lower.
Maybe this wasn't wrong, after all, or maybe she was just tired and it
felt too good to think.
She could feel his hand running
insistantly
on her in the most intimate way, the most intimate recesses, and for a
couple of seconds, her vision became blurry, she assumed that the gasps
and the moans she heard were hers, as the heat and the tension increased
gradually, until it was unbearable. She grabbed him instinctively, or maybe
it was the sheets, everything felt so fuzzy. And she felt something pulse
inside her. More pleasure with every spasm.
The violent sensations progressively
subsided, and she remembered how to breathe. She stared at the ceiling,
lost in thought. It felt weird to think that you don't even need love to
feel such a physical pleasure, a state of mind-numbing bliss.
She heard the sound of ruffled clothes
and she sat up to find exactly what she had expected. She stared at him
almost clinically for a while, then ran a finger gingerly along his chest,
tracing his ribs. A tiny smile appeared on her face as she observed his
belly-button. So, even important people do own something as funny as a
belly-button? She brushed away the comical thought and looked up. His eyes
were closed, and when her hand went away, he caught it and placed it back
on his skin. she lay her palm againt it and, felt his heartbeat for a
moment.
So, scientific experiments proved that he did own a heart,
too.
Suddenly, he leaned forward and when
she found herself lying under him, she knew they had been pretty far. He
was a bit heavy and she felt more comfortable when he rested his weight
on his forearms. She was surprised to discover how fast her heat beat.
Impatience? Or just fear? She closed her eyes, and only felt a strange
contact, not really painful, not pleasurable either, until something tore
and she bit her lower lip in pain and surprise.
He looked down at her with unusually
dim eyes, and she noticed for the first time the tiny beads of sweat forming
on his brow. "Does it... hurt?"
She didn't see the point in lying,
and he didn't look like he felt really guilty anyway, so she nodded.
"Yes..."
"... Sorry..."
"You're not..."
It didn't really hurt after, it was
just a steady warmth, and the movements. She burried her head in his
shoulder
while he moved, smelling him, thinking. Actually, she thought, there was
no great deal about sex, and she had prefered what he had done before.
He, on the contrary, seemed to enjoy himself greatly. He kept whispering
sweet nonsenses about how good she felt to him in her ear, and his
body seemed to tense progressively. She watched him move faster, shaking
her body in the process, and shiver, groaning weirdly.
When he didn't move at all, she
assumed
he was done.
As dawn lights up another
day
Visions I once had fade
away
All of those words
unspoken
My wildest dreams are
broken
It wasn't supposed to be that
way
He kissed her lightly on the forehead,
before leaving the bed, moments after, she heard the sound of water running
and saw a faint light slip under the french doors. She looked at a golden
clock on the nightstand. 3h18. So late? She stood up on the bed and stared
at the dark stain with a mixture of curiosity, uneasiness and pride. It
was done, and strangely, she didn't felt particularly different. Her
thoughts
drifted on Duo, would have it been the same? Probably. Or not.
He leaned against the door frame
and watched her. She looked so amusing and innocent, wrapped hapazardly
in the sheets, admiring her 'work'. He approached silently, and she gazed
at him, he could almost have said 'fondly', if he hadn't known
better.
She smiled sadly, as he sat on the
bed. "You don't love me, do you?" She asked, feeling a strange fuzzy feeling
in her chest at the words she was pronouncing. Almost like...
Sadness?
"No... But you don't love me either,
am I right?"
She simply nodded and sat near him.
"I think I'll try to sleep now." She whispered.
"Yes... Tomorrow... We'll see." He
said absently, watching her snuggle in the covers.
Mon intime
étrangère
Cheated or
awakened
Se trouver, se
défaire
Does it matter
anyway? |
My intimate
stranger
Finding each other is loosing
each other
|
Hilde left the shuttle and wandered
across the streets, barely enlighten by a sad dawn. She read the paper
in her hand for the hundredth time and laughed. It wasn't even funny. But
she couldn't help but laugh. "Fired... For active disobedience and blatant
incompetency..." She read out loud, giggling. It wasn't a very honorable
way to leave the army, but it felt so good to be free. She reflected longly
on the night... And the more she read it, the more she thought he had a
certain sense of humor.
She caught sight of a small bar,
with an interesting ad for fresh donuts, and pushed the doors, the joy
and the relievment progressively replacing the sadness and the confusion
she had felt a few hours before. 'I guess that's how strange experiments
become good memories' She thought, as she ordered a bag of various
treats.
She was about to bite in the first
victim, when her eyes stopped at something, and she just stood there, mouth
wide open. Like a moron, she realized.
"I had never thought I had such an
effect on people." A familiar voice chuckled.
She didn't need to think to know
that the owner of the voice had violet eyes and an incredible
braid.
There was a long silence, and he
eventually broke it, asking ackwardly, "I... I thought you would be dead
or in jail... Did you... Escape?"
"Would you believe me if I told you
that General Kushrenada himself fired me for a lousy pretext, to avoid
me to finish in a cell?"
"Yeah..." He chuckled.
"You have no idea..." She whispered,
as he took both her hand and her bag of food, and dragged her outside,
with an incessant chatting.
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